Emotional breakdown...

Mothers Day is on Sunday and I am really hoping it will be special...just sayin. There is nothing like a sacrifice of a mother. Nor is there anything like the horrible feeling of helplessness you get when trying to nurse your sweet children back to health. The last few months have been challenging, to say the least. It first started with Liam getting a staph infection for his horrid eczema, not to long after that he got RSV. The RSV lasted about 2 weeks. I did round the clock breathing treatments even setting my alarm in the middle of the night to do them. I will never forget how loud that machine is at 2:30 am. Right when Liam was getting over that Landon got the croup. I was on the phone with the nurse what seemed like a eternity only for her to tell me there was nothing they can do for him. What! Unacceptable! My poor baby! He needs relief. So I did the only thing I could.. load him up with Tylenol and lots of snuggles. He slept in our room for several nights just because of his breathing. After all of this poor Landon got double ear infections. One of the ear's had some nasty pus and they had to irrigate it out. I felt so bad for my little guy. During this doctors appointment I was sick as well. Nothing like running a fever and having a sore throat with a runny nose and dealing with two sick kids in the doctors office who haven't had naps. I was so happy to leave that place. While all of was going on Liam was still having reactions to certain foods. His skin was covered with eczema. I finally figured out that the soaps I was using on him contained coconut. Liam's little body does not like coconut. Bummer, it's soooo good. Then I found out he is allergic to eggs. His allergist put him on allergy medication to take every day. We saw a big difference. No more red purple eyes, itchy skin, and best of all his general mood is just better. He can hear better now too now that the fluid is draining from his ears. So it sounds like everything was getting better right? Nope, we were hit hard with a horrible stomach flu. Thank goodness Danette was here! Cameron got up around 4am and started puking. While I was helping him I started to feel bad but there was no time to think about that because I took off down the hallway towards Landon's room. Without giving gory details, lets just say I had to change all of his bedding, his PJs, and then give a good face wash. There is nothing like a mother's love I tell ya! Later that day we all were throwing up, even Danette. It took us days to get better. Liam was the last one to get to get rid of it though. So about 5 days later I go to get Liam out of his crib and see that his eyes are sealed shut. Conjunctivitis...just great. I used a warm wash cloth to help his eyes but it was just getting worse. I took him in and the diagnosis.. Bronchitis, sinus infection, and SEVERE conjunctivitis. They gave me a cream to put under his eyelids and a antibiotic. While I am disinfecting I am praying that every bad germ leave this house!! Please, for my own sanity.